Well, I'm at the 10 week mark. Total weight lost: 14 lbs, 8 oz. I sometimes feel like I am a turtle, slowly moving to the finish line. But maybe this is the secret to keeping it off. Changing my lifestyle, for me. Taking care of me. After all the years of taking care of others, it's my turn. Sounds just a bit selfish, doesn't it?
I'm really having a hard time controlling my emotional eating, though. There has been a huge fracturing amongst my siblings, and I feel that I may be perceived by my parents as the problem. ( Only this is something we never talk about. ) Several years ago, my only sister came to my rescue when I was deathly ill after cancer surgery. She literally nursed me back to health. I feel that I can never repay that debt...that I owe her my life. But this whole religion/politics thing has torn us apart. I finally stood up for myself. I realized I can not change my entire value, or belief system, just because she wants me to. I have to stay true to who I am. Denying that means I don't really exist as me. This does not mean I don't believe in God, I do, just that I do not believe in her chosen path. It's not for me. So, we haven't talked in 10 weeks. (Coincidently, right when I joined WW.) I miss her...but there is a wall now between us, and I don't think it can ever be torn down. I drove 5 hrs last weekend to visit my parents on Father's Day. Since they live with my sister, I was anxious about seeing her, how it would go. She chose not to be home when I visited. I left a birthday gift for my 6 yr old niece. No acknowledgement. So there appears to be no meeting half way. It's so very sad.
But I can't continue to dwell on it, because I see myself slipping into old habits. Can't let that happen!
New subject: Important Things I have learned these last 10 weeks!
Stay away from greasy fast food! Major intestinal Havoc! Enough said!
Having more energy really does feel better than junk food tastes!
Fresh fruits are actually quite good!
Still not loving the veggies...or more accurately, they don't love me!
It's not about deprivation...it's about making smarter choices!
Writing in this blog helps me remember why I'm doing this...so post more often!
I've got to move more. I hate exercise more than I dislike veggies, but I've got to move more!
SLOW AND STEADY WINS THE RACE!
